fall seven times, stand up eight.

Yesterday, swimsuit shopping was actually kind of an inspiration to me. Of course my aunt called me fat the whole time, and I looked like I weighed 3,000 pounds in all of the swim suits, but I found one that was really cute. Which made me want to lose a bunch of weight to look better in it once summer gets here.

Today I'm home "sick". I have something called GERD that makes me throw up a lot of the time. So when I want excuses to not eat, or to get out of going to places, then I just say it's from GERD. Plus, it gives me excuses to throw up nasty food I've eaten.

Thinspo of today (:

Mila Kunis & Heather Morris.

You might recognize Mila from That 70's Show & Black Swan.

Heather from Glee.

Neither of them are Ana, but they're both really thin, and fit. (Heather is a dancer/choreographer) Sometimes it's nice for me to have thinspo of people who aren't necessarily anorexic. & They're both fun celebritites from shows we all know & love (: Well at least I LOVE them!

&& Betty:

Thanks hun (: That made me feel a bunch better. & You're right. My aunt's a bigger fat ass than I am. Lol.

The Introduction

Basically all you need to know about me, is in the little section where it says about me. I designed this blog for mostly myself and anyother person out there looking for some support. It's a blog for those ONLY with eating disorders. If you don't have an eating disorder, or you're recovering, then get out. If you don't have anything nice to say, hit the big red fucking x in the top right hand corner of your screen.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

So I've been struggling off and on with eating disorders since elementary school. Recently they've gotten worse. So I decided to make this blog. I'll just start with today..

Woke up, did 20 minutes of Yoga, 15 minutes of flexability exercises, 8 minutes of Tae Bo, 10(?) minutes dancing, 25 jumping jacks before dinner and I'll do more before bed.

As for food... egh! Umm I had Multigrain Cheerios for breakfast, black bean burrito for lunch, homemade pizza for dinner, which I had to throw back up...but unfortunately I didn't get the chance to get rid of it all. I've been sick so I've been eating more meals to get better, but starting tomorrow I should be back to normal. Wish me luck!

Here's some of my favorite celebrity thinspo:

More to comee (: